Poem, poems, poetry

A letter of resignation

I have no soul

No ounce of it in me

I follow the track

Of my destiny

The god or the male

Or the military

Cause it’s them, who lead the world for me

The path is clear

All I need is to submit

I have no soul

It was denied for me.

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Why

So what are we supposed to do

Kill each other

Commit suicide

Get married?

The pressure is too hard to endure

And it’s more than just atmospheric 

Can’t fight it away

Everyone is against us

Even the psychiatrists

Especially them

Can’t make a step either left or right

A total impasse 

Or maybe I am imagining things

Maybe we are both creating this schizophrenic drama

For a show which will never be staged

Not in this city

Not in this country

Not here

Here only a prison

Of squashed reality

A world based on lies 

In the middle of this hypocrisy

We die 

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Animus

With you it felt that everything was in alignment

Even my head

Especially it

And my body more grounded

Or my soul

If there is such a thing 

now it is chaos

And all the doors are blocked in my apartment

Can’t talk with anybody

Except for what they throw at me

That’s it

Always interrupted

Whenever my thought is pursuing something

The surface people are like daggers

They are embodied

And I am removed

Once with you I felt there was some meaning

To all what is floating and disjoined

And my mind had been grounded 

But now I hate you

Because all you have seen in me was a woman

And you 

In it 

And me like your canvas or a character.

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PROPOSAL

You are moving too fast

With that little poem

Guerilla warfare

In the depths of your dark – green eyes

Emeralds

But she wants diamonds

Like always

Maybe she even could stoop so low and

accept the fake ones

It’s all so trite

These women

What do I need it for?

Devil knows 

Like if it was not enough

Eating strawberries

On a Saturday morning. 

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Literature, poetry

Abaddon

I can’t stand being without you, today

When the order of Satan is encircling you

To push you away

The blood ritual

Which makes me faint

Why the darkness is pressing you down

It sends needles down my spine

The nature doesn’t have to be made for death

Cristal waters

Green rivers

Little huts

Instead – bloodshed is coming from behind the border 

Escape

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THE AXIETY

No friends or rather

Friends-enemies

And I am myself

a friend-enemy

To myself and them

Could we escape?

Hide in the forest of Hamstead Heat

He doesn’t  understand

Enough of poetry, I say

Poetry is for the cowards or those who cannot speak

Those strong personas

those narcissists

Are putting their heavy shoes on me

I hate them

I would like to go but I can’t

Cause I am seized by anxiety 

like under the Russian invasion

It seizes me 

What is a soul and what about it

It pulls me into a murky pond. No!

Just stay still and wait

How can we stop the tornado of hate?

Let’s make a hedge

A nice hedge sparkled with magic,

a hedge nobody can’t kick

neither be a Russian or an Ukrainian

A beautiful hedge 

With no crossings

A labyrinth for the mind

Take of  your heavy shoes

Back off to your polygon

You bastard

It’s a sanctuary

I hate you 

I do I do I do

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The Reason

As if being down-to-earth

is diminishing our souls

as if it was an insult to us

to degrade to the earthiness and materialism

myopic day-to-day

no, we can’t live like that

but what are the alternatives

only to daydream

in a confused fantasy

the option is the inability to be free in this unfreedom

cause we were not born rich

cause the Russians took our things

and killed our souls with stones

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FEMALNESS

I cannot solve the puzzle of my soul

Maybe I am an infinite emptiness

Maybe I am just a boring entity

Without a goal and motor

The feeling have left me

After the storm

What is there to pursue

Decorating the home?

I was hungry so I have eaten

Now

I want to dance a little

Its all in pieces

Its just existence

Mundanity

Oh insanity

You are a blessing

You give a meaning to this disconnected pleasant normality

What is there underneath

Don’t ask your mother

She won’t say anything

How is she not bored with this mundane eternity

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20 century is over now, thank heavens

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My grandma was a little bit possessed by the aristocratic madness

Love is a mistake

You lose your resolve, woman

He is not a god, and you are not a bird

You will go straight to well with your nirvana

They don’t want it

They like concrete

I really need to get myself some piano

Oh, Sappho and romantics

Stop strangling me in the sleep

Incubus

You dreamers

All your opium love spelled dreams

Are suffocating

Killing babies in their sleep at night for their selfish lovers

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